A few years ago, my twin flame gifted me a set of tarot cards. I was interested in learning how to read them, but it seemed to be a lot of work. I thought I could never do it. But here I am doing it, just like she does. People will say that tarot cards are toys of Satan, there are connected to Satanic worship, blah blah blah. IF the cards were connected to all those things, then I would not touch them. Some of you know how much I hate Satan’s lackeys; which is my term for a Satanist. The cards are very connected to me. I don’t allow anyone else to touch them. That is my personal preference.
Over the three day weekend, I did a self blocking and an anxiety spread for practice, and the answers were quite interesting.
I wanted to know what is blocking me from growing spiritually, and the answer is that I’m stuck in the past. Indeed, since I prefer the old ways, and I am hesitant to embrace new ways of doing something. Sometimes I try something new, and it works out great. Most of the time I will not because I’m more comfortable doing it the old way.
I did an anxiety spread, which reveals the root cause of my anxiety, and the answer is that I fear change. That’s very true. I do not like change. It means having to adapt my comfort zone to allow for it, and I don’t want to change anything. It makes me fearful. Just leave well enough alone. And that also contributes to me being stuck in the past.
Okay, so how can I grow spiritually and ease, if not eliminate, my anxiety? The cards say that I need to let go of negativity, control, worry, fear, and trust the universe. Simple right? Not at first. Believe it or not, it feels scary to let go of fear, worry, and negativity. But they’re not doing anything for me except to stop my evolution. The cards have been saying this for a long time. Practically beating me over the head. Hello, we’ve been saying this all along. We’ll keep saying it until you get it. Okay, I get it now!
I will let go of fear, worry, negativity, and trust that the universe will take care of me. So mote it be.
Perfect example of me letting go of fear: For a long time, I put off buying a desperately needed TV stand because I was fearful that I would not like it, it would not go with the sitting room, it would be too big, not tall enough, too heavy, etc. Yesterday, I went to Big Lots to look at a TV stand I saw online. I like it, but they did not have it in stock. I ordered it online. It should get here by the end of the month.
It must be working because I actually went to sleep last night. Usually I’m awake all night because I have work in the morning, then I’m bone tired after my AM shift and a nap is needed. I’ll see how it goes for the rest of the week.
Before I sign off, let me say that if you don’t believe in tarot cards, that is fine. Live, and let live. Just don’t force your preferences on people who do. We all like different things. Some people like lobster, I hate lobster. I like Stromboli, some people hate it. That being said, thanks for reading my post. Comments welcome. Have a blessed rest of your week.
Fight the Power